Bleak McSatan's Uber-Depression-Abyss

2005-04-24T21:29:00.000-03:00

Ok, so it's only been like 7 months this time, get over it.

Some untitled stuff that's been lying around in some untitled locations:

Untitled #1

Wanting more
acheiving less
world ending
as I write this mess
Here I am
stuck in my niche
Karma's a bitch

Untitled #2

Accomplishments
summed up to zero
Understanding,
Ironically,
Misunderstood by all
Successes and failures
synonamous and introspective
looking in
what is seen
successes: irrelevant
failures: unimpressive

Untitled #3

Lost in maniacal reverence of
antiquated ideals
I laugh
As reverence is
revealed to be
revultion
Disperse the disillusionment
and embrace
the dystopia you created
Fruitless finger pointing
ends
With all eyes on you

Untitled #4

Ire
Festers within
Burning my mind
Blanketing my thoughts
in a fire-red snow
what is the point?
what purpose does it serve?
Impossible to tell,
Impossible to grasp,
the concept of
yourself

That's it. Another post sometime between now and when I forget I have a blog.

2004-10-05T23:04:00.000-03:00

No new shit, but here's some awesome metal bands to tide you over till my next well anticipated post...

Bands that are better than you: ACDC, Amon Amarth, Arch Enemy, At The Gates, Bathory, Behemoth, Black Sabbath, Blind Guardian, Bloodbath, Borknagar, Burzum, Carcass, Celtic Frost, Children of Bodom, Cradle of Filth, Cryptopsy, Cynic, Dark Tranquility, Darkthrone, Dead Silent Slumber, Demons & Wizards, Dimmu Borgir, Dissection, Dream Theater, Einherjer, Emperor, Ensiferum, Enslaved, Entombed, Ephel Duath, Eternal Tears of Sorrow, Face Down, Finntroll, Godgory, Hammerfall, Iced Earth, In Flames, Iron Maiden, Kalmah, Killswitch Engage, Marduk, Mayhem, Megadeth, Mork Gryning, Myrkskog, Naglfar, Napalm Death, Nightwish, Nile, Old Man's Child, Opeth, Peccatum, Sepultura, Slayer, Soilwork, Vintersorg, White/Rob Zombie, Wintersun, Zyklon

2004-08-26T01:09:00.000-03:00

Yeah, I know, 3 months since an update but it's not like anyone reads this anyway.

Jackass-in-the-box
future visions dimming
labyrinthine paths laid out
tears of fate,
glisten in the dark
teasing with falsehoods

avaricious past, corrupting the present
denying the future, despite the promise

2004-05-27T21:30:00.000-03:00

A short one, and a longer one, cus size matters.

Macrocosmic Indifference

Inept totalitarian
Pseudosymphonic delusions
Permeating
Existential Materiality
Defining, ranking
us.

Wisdumb

Waves of dissonance
Shadows of the unknown
summoning
grasping
knowing
failing
disguised disfortune
meaningless diplomacy
resolving the future
probationary reality
securely reveling in
the knowledge of knowing nothing
we search for ways of doing less
for more

2004-05-05T00:39:00.000-03:00

This is what happens when I try to go to sleep...

Distinctly Conformist

Unrelenting patterns of
destruction
ruling your life from the
shadows of hypocrisy
obscured by vain attempts
at reality
who's to say what the
truth really is
euphoric visions of a future
that can never be
blindfolded bystanders
perpetuating
Systematic Overindulgence

2004-03-22T23:45:00.000-04:00

Omg! What's this?! More new stuff. (You just wasted 2 seconds of your life reading that!)

Parasitical Symbiotic Disassociation

Living off what others give
returning naught but empty smiles,
and death.
Feeding the killers of our killers
blatantly denying guilt by disassociation,
and death.
Receiving gifts never offered
teetering towards the acrid pit of false hope
hoping not to fall
pushed in from behind, we look back
to see who has killed us
Only our own arms can we see,
and death.

2004-03-19T02:11:00.000-04:00

This is all I have for now.
Enjoy it, or don't. You're still gonna die someday.

2004-03-19T01:57:00.000-04:00

Misinterpretations of Perpetual De-Creation
Darkness looms over all that are
Can't even see the daggers in your back
Allies become foes at the critical moment
Bleak is the world. In the void.
Beaten, betrayed, broken,
Searching for an end
An end,
an end. To the void.
The storm grows stronger
Death seems near
The void calls out. Beckoning.
Further into the abyssmal darkness,
nothing exists
nothing remains
Everything is nothing, without light
Nothing is eternal.

2004-03-19T01:54:00.000-04:00

Life of the Pawns
The powerful keep their grip on reality's throat
Choking the truth
Spitting out nuggets to appease the masses
The fools who can't see the hand that chokes reality is the same hand that feeds them
Processed opinions fill their minds,
Make them believe they have choice
Fools become pawns with their own will
Given to them by the same hand
The fools control the world
But who controls the fools?

2004-03-19T01:47:00.000-04:00

Thursday June 13, 3pm
I felt the light's sweet caress on my skin
The symphony of Nature's music filled the air with happiness
Quietly and contented I sat, long I listened
Interrupted by the scream of passing machines, I was drawn back
I noticed then the litter around me,
Nature's burial mound, truly a garbage heap

So I got up and left.

How Human of me.

2004-03-19T01:33:00.000-04:00

Reality's Bane
War, diplomacy's deformed brother
Raging through the world
Seen but not heeded
The death is not real
Until it's too late

Fools
Living in a fantasy world
Our illusions slowly dying
But when it's too late
Reality gains the upper hand
And conquers, captures, kills

Born dying
Trying to give reason to our being
Failing horribly

Humanity, distracted by our vanity
Taking all we need, and more
Can't stop the consumption
Killing the opposition
Destroying all that lives

War against ourselves
War against the world
War against reality

We need to open our eyes
Dispell the dream,
Really a nightmare
Open our eyes to the death,
See the world dying

But we can't.
We can only live for today
Killing tomorrow
Fuck the future
The world's not real
Why work for tomorrow
When the dream still reigns?

Can't wake up,
Can't go back,
Can't go on,
We are Reality's Bane